29 and feeling fine

Today I turn 29. Yes I am a proud Capricorn, I love starting off every new year a year older and wiser. It feels good it feels the same it feels special. This is the last year of my life I will ever again say I am twenty-something. I was and never have been a “birthday” girl. I never was the type to let the world know it’s “my day”. In fact, ever since I was younger, like elementary days I would play hooky and not go to school and as I got older I would call out of work. Every year. I never wanted to make it all about me me me. That isn’t my personality. I always want others to shine and I want to make them laugh and feel good. I never ever wanted the attention, that never felt right to me and still doesn’t. Hence the reason why I don’t plan to ever marry. One night of all eyes on you sounds like a nightmare to me. You’re probably thinking this is coming from the girl who posts an #ootd on Instagram everyday. Why yes, I do that to hopefully inspire others in my outfit choices. That is the one thing I am confident most in, my outfits, my expression to the world without saying a damn thing. Other than that I never ever wanted the attention. I use to wear a wedding ring in college so men wouldn’t hit on me. I worked at Express and Michael Kors in college and they made me a “greeter” and I would BEG to do go-backs in the fitting room just so I could be in my own little shell. But this is 29. This year is different. Maybe it’s because I’m hitting 30 next year and I feel like THAT means big business. As in, I’m really no longer a spring chicken anymore. Life flies by and it is quite scary. It’s petrifying. I can say my 20s were the BEST years of my life. I partied my ass off in college every single night in NYC, and I mean every single night. My mother had a 12 hour successful spinal fusion surgery, my father battled leukemia and fought that mother fucker (sorry not sorry for my French), my brother was in a motor cycle accident and is fine, my sister changed her career path and took a huge risk and is happier than ever, I moved out of my childhood home, my parents divorced and I was okay but now it really hits close to home for me and I’m working on it, my old boss at the law firm I worked at for 7 years who I was super close with passed, he was one of the best men I ever knew. Lots of my friends got married and had babies, I rekindled old friendships/relationships, I realize things now that I never realized in my teens. I get why they say youth is wasted on the young. I started my blog which I love doing and love curating new outfits all day everyday, that makes me happy, I have the bestest friend a girl can ever ask for, I don’t even consider her a friend, she is my soulmate/soul sister. And most importantly, and I mean most, i met the love of my life, the man who gives me any/and everything, who would drop the world for me. He is the nicest, sweetest man and from there we had the most gorgeous little boy. I am healthy, Andrew is healthy, Mason is healthy. That is all in my life that matters. I am really lucky and I think about how lucky I am everyday and every decision I have made that’s led me to where I am. Now we have opened our own business and its super successful and we are overwhelmed with positive feedback. I love my family, I love my life. 2017 is going to be one of the best years yet for me. I am so thankful for the years who have made me, me. Bring it on 29, I’m feeling it. (Sorry I wrote this extremely quick and did not proofread!) 

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